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48. Childhood

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BellaBugia

Published: Feb 10, 2012

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Mummy begging for it to stop

Daddy beat her til she dropped

I wanted to save her but never could

Grim tales of my childhood

Bruises, blood and shattered bones

Still, I tried to mend this broken home

Never treated her like a husband should

My tattered and torn childhood

Images burnt into my brain

Still haunt me to this very day

Very few memories were good

Taunted by the nightmares of my childhood

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48. Childhood

I don't have very many fond memories from when I was a child, most of it was horrifying. I still have nightmares about it so I mainly avoid sleep.

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Mar 18, 2012

Sometimes the storm brings more flowers than the sun. Stay strong.

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