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A HeartA heart does not have eyes,
so it is blind,

A heart does not have ears,
so it is deaf,

But a heart does have a beat,
and it beats for you, my love.
I Cannot TellI could sing such praises of you
But I fear no aria will do you justice
I cannot tell of your eyes
Sparkling sapphires of indomitable allure
With the fury of a thousand waves
Yet the serenity of an angel
No, that is not enough
I cannot tell of your nature
A captivating glow that surrounds you
Sweeter than the purest honey
Or your compelling wit and charm
No, that is not enough
I cannot tell of your heart
Iridescent beauty, pure and true
As stunning and fragile as crystal
Benevolent and full of passion 
No, that is not enough
I could sing such praises of you
But I fear no aria will do you justice
I'll Remember YouI'll remember you
when someone steals my breath
so I can't even speak.

I'll remember you
when the rain beats so hard
I can't hear myself think.

I'll remember you
when I see a careless smile
on a young girl's face.

I'll remember you
when my heart aches
in a lonely place.

I'll remember you
when the going gets rough
and no one's there for me.

I'll remember you
when I fruitlessly wish
for things that used to be.

I'll remember you
when I see someone smile
as they hide a sigh.

I'll remember you
when someone's surprised
at the word "goodbye."

I'll remember you
when another claims to be
my other half.

I'll remember you, dar
You're My Subconscious MemoryI wish I could remember.
I wish I could remember the way it felt to be in your safe embrace,
I wish I could remember the way you taste,
& That buzzing that was left on my lips after we shared a kiss.

I wish I could remember your eyes and their color-
That bright, vivid green that's impossible to describe & forever embedded in my subconscious memory.
{But I know that memories aren't photographs, & I know my memory is not doing you any justice}

I wish I could speak to you again, {Your voice always calmed me down}
You always knew exactly what to say,
& You knew how to make everything seem okay.

I wish that you'd come back to me,
I wis
RegretOh, to turn back the hands of time
To tell myself what I now know
Saying good-bye wasn't the answer
I should never have let you go

I walked away from you, from us
In a fruitless attempt to heal my heart
Little did I know it would mend
Only to watch it fall apart

As each day passes it chips away
The shards of regret pierce the remains
Cold and hollow decaying matter
That shall never again be the same

Pure torture to have you near
So close and yet so far
The pain is mine and mine alone
This dull blade leaves an unhealable scar

I dream of the day I'll have the courage
To lay my heart before you
Praying you'll bare all in kind
Who Needs Friends?Dear Loneliness,
Will you be my friend?
Because I seem to just be a trend,
That the world has put to bed.

Dear Sorrow,
Will you make me smile?
Because Happiness has run a mile,
Just like everything else I need.

Dear Pessimism,
Will you help me hope?
Because Optimism is a slippery slope,
When you've seen the world.

Dear Apathy,
Will you make me care?
Because I hate Interest's flare,
In a place too dull for life.

Dear Agony,
Will you make me content?
Because you're the one that'll prevent,
That which I long for.

Dear Death,
Will you make me feel alive?
Because I don't even want to survive,
In a world that cares too much.
Will you be the one that saves me?Maybe, you'll be the one that saves me
the one that takes my eyes away
from the pain I feel every day
In my body, but mostly in my mind

I hurt myself every day
With the thoughts I think
Not thinking about love
But about the possible pain

A single happy thought
Crushed by darkness
Flowing from my mind
Overwhelming it all

Be the one that saves me
Bring joy in my heart
Without the pain I feel
From my own thoughts

Will you be the one that saves me?
From my own darkened mind
Every single living day
Before I break myself down

Do you want to save me?
This broken person inside
With all my dark thoughts
Flowing over my mind

Ple
I Hate MeHate is a word
Reserved for dire circumstances.
You say you hate this,
You say you hate that;
You say it without reserve.
Hate and malice
Drip from your every pore,
Sticking to those who love you.
I cannot hate you,
I can only love you.
But how can I love
Something
That thrusts word-shaped
Daggers into its victims?
I love, because
My hate is greater than yours,
My hate is different than yours.
I hate how I walk,
How I talk,
How I breathe,
How I live,
How I love.
I hate me.
Her WorldShe lives in a world all of her own
Of brilliant blues and dazzling greens
Sunshine more radiant than you could ever imagine
Sweet aromas of fresh flowers and 
Strawberries lace the air
She speaks her own secret language
Broken sentences and mismatched syllables
Incomprehensible melodies
Playful sing-songs and heartfelt tunes
She dances to her own beat
You will never understand the wonder
Of a bubble dancing in the breeze
Glistening pinks, purples and blues 
There is nothing more beautiful to her
You will never battle the difficulties
Of not being able to say what enters your heart or mind
A prisoner of yourself
Trapped behind your own tongue
Choking on your words as you try to speak
And while she struggles
While each day is an uphill battle
In a war that will span a lifetime
You'll never see the world in all it's wonder
In all it's beauty
In all it's glory 
As she does
Dream Like Kings"Dream Like Kings"

When we dream we dream like kings

Kings with gold and diamond rings

Rings that shine from eye to eye

Eyes divine like massive shrines

In this land composed of sand

Sand as smooth as silky hands

Hands design these crafty plans

Plans that have such odd demands

They call for walls made of ore

Ore taken from the core

The core of which can not be seen

Seen by those who can not dream

They call for halls made of glass

Glass cut as sharp as grass

Grass as green as those jade rings

Found on hands of kings who dream

For war to cease and peace increased

Peace leased away to nations obese

In weapons, bombs, and viole
TogetherI know you hurt
You suffer great pain
That you feel you must bear alone
But you are not alone
You will never be alone

Take me by the hand
Show me where your mind dwells
Surround me in the darkness
That overcomes you
Let us slowly descend

Together
Why Do We Want What We Cant Have?Why Do We Want What We Cant Have?

Is it in our nature to be constantly insatiable?
Or is it because the things we want are unattainable?
Maybe the things we already have are too readily available.

This is something I will never understand.
The things we desperately want are always high in demand.
Ironically they also always seem to be some sort of name brand.

What we don't have seems all the more desirable.
Although our reasons for wanting them in our heads seem justifiable
The reality of us actually obtaining these things are not entirely reliable.

So why bother with these materialistic dreams?
Is it a conniving ploy to make our l
Shoulder for your tearsRest on my shoulder
Cry your tears out
Let them fall onto me
So they are out of you
Warm my shoulder with tears
their hot hate no longer yours

Let their energy flow out
I'll take some of it myself
For a memory together
How it's all over now
ChemistryWithin your eyes I felt a calling,

It froze me in place.

As if somehow my mind just knew,

I'd yearn for your embrace.

I couldn't fight this magnetism,

Pulling me in your direction

Every action turned to the thought,

"How can I win your affection?"

I knew that you were perfect,

From the second that we spoke

It was as if I'd fallen into a dream,

And gladly I never woke

For wrapped up in your arms

I found my greatest desire

Someone to make me feel alright,

Regardless of what may transpire

I used to dread the future,

There was so much left unknown.

But as long as I've got you

I will always have a home.
UntitledEvery night when I go to bed
Before I fall asleep, I pray
To be blessed with an eternal slumber
Not to have to face another day
Stress feels like a crushing weight
Heavy heart struggles to beat
Air too dense for my lungs to endure
My legs give way, can't find my feet
Close my eyes and drift to sleep
Greeted by the sweetest of dreams
Gun barrels and small white pills
Scarlet oceans and steel that gleams
Such beautiful dreams must come to an end
I open my eyes and curse the night
Streaming through my window
The bitter warmth of morning light
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Blame MyselfDrink myself into a coma
Pray that I don't wake from sleep
Everyone is safer in my slumber
I've nothing left but broken dreams

Wishes to leave this God forsaken place
And yet I can't bring myself to leave
The lives I'd effect, the hearts I'd break
Loved ones left behind to grieve

So I'll take another sip from this bottle of wine
And hope that it will take me away
For if I die it's not my fault
My family and friends, it's easier this way

Punish myself beyond all measure
For crimes I've committed, unwritten sins
Torture my soul a million times over
Blaming myself for everything

Drink myself into a coma
I just can't bring myself
I Do Not Own Your HeartI do not own your heart
It does not beat within my chest
I am not it's keeper
But I love you, nonetheless

It does not beat within my chest
It is not mine to hold
If it were mine, I assure you
I would treat it like the finest gold

I do not own your heart
And it cuts like a knife
But I'd rather love you from a distance
Than to lose you for life

It cuts like a knife
So close and yet so far
You don't know how much it hurts
That I do not own your heart.
I Saw You For The First TimeI saw you for the first time
It was such a beautiful sight
So raw, so pure, such passion
So radiant and bright

I saw you for the first time
The real you, after all these years
You shared feelings I didn't know were there
Words so sweet it brought me to tears

I saw you for the first time
I just couldn't believe my eyes
This new and wonderful side to you
That you kept buried deep inside

I saw you for the first time
It brought me to my knees
All this emotion behind the floodgates
With all the intensity of a raging sea

I saw you for the first time
This part of you I never want to lose
I see it all now, crystal clear
I can't b
Stranger in the MirrorThere's a stranger in my mirror
She looks just like me
Same dark hair, same brown eyes
She's trying to break free

There's a stranger in my mirror
I could swear she was my twin
Bound by glass and frame
Fighting a battle she cannot win

There's a stranger in my mirror
It seems she's lost way
Her spark is gone, spirit diminished
Tears run down her face

There's a stranger in my mirror
I close my eyes and pray
If I keep my eyes shut long enough
Maybe she'll go away

There's a stranger in my mirror
Happy as can be
She smiles and walks away
And then it hits me..

I am the prisioner
I am the reflection
The stranger, all along, was
Be Happy.You don't think
You deserve it
But I know it to be true
You deserve to be happy
And to smile
Despite what we've been through

We all
Make mistakes
But we learn from our past
Take the step
Forgive yourself
Because I forgive you

Be happy
Stand tall
Be proud of the amazing man you are
You've done so much
Come so far
From where you began

I know
That I will never
Love another the way I love you
But I didn't like
The person I became
How I couldn't trust you

You mean
The world to me
Even now after it all
I can't forget
How it feels
Like you're gone, but you're still here,
Confused.You can read me like a book
Riddles hidden within my pages
Are no mystery to you
You know everything inside of me
Every thought
Every feeling
Nothing can escape you

I don't want to let you in
I don't want to care
Maybe if I keep it all inside
If I hide it from the world
From myself
Maybe
Just maybe
It isn't real

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I Hate That I Love You

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I hate that you're my every thought
That I wake with you on my mind
And fall asleep
To images of your smile

I hate that I adore you so
With gorgeous eyes
And sweet lips
I long to taste

I hate the way you make me feel
Like I need you to survive
As if breathing without you
Is excruciating

I hate that I yearn for you
I hunger for your touch
Every moment
Of every day

I hate the way I love you
With every beat
Of my wretched heart
That loving you keeps me alive
Yet keeps me alone
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Self explanatory.

Constructive criticism or none at all, please. Thank you.
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~FairyTitaniaErza Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course I'm not crying right now... not crying... still denying it. *sobbing my heart out* But yeah, I can sympathize with you.
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Mood: Love ~HunterTheShadow Dec 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Exactly how I'm feeling now... It's awesome
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Mood: Love ~That-crazy-fangirl Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Wow. Describes the way I feel with the one I love...
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Mood: Tender ~Exotixa Nov 22, 2012  Student Photographer
its beautiful..........
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Mood: Nervous ~aaammmsterdddam Oct 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This.. this sums my feelings up perfectly!
Although I did not write it it is a physical representation of my very thougts, perhaps I am still more human than I thought, or you are less human than I think you are...

Anyway, I am probably going to screw up BIG TIME, but I will direct the woman I love here, even though she has a boyfriend she deserves to know. (Oh I am so afraid of the results)
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~BellaBugia Nov 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I would like to commend you on your bravery in sending the woman you love here. I certainly do hope it works out well for you! You never know what life has in store or how things may turn out. You never know, there might be no need to be afraid after all!!
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~aaammmsterdddam Nov 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well, somewhere it went wrong, she is now ignoring me :(
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Mood: Sadness ~Pheromone-Somniferum Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
This is me now.

Well done.
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Mood: Adoration ~shironomitsuki Apr 28, 2012
I can relate... awesome job on this one ^^
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*oleke Apr 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Love it can relate alot ins face :)
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