Delayed Consequences
773 Days
7 Hours
25 Minutes
30 Seconds
That's how long it has been
The apex of that decision
When I sat at this screen
And made the last incision
I turned against my mind
Staring down upon the blade
Knowing I'd soon be blind
I should have been afraid
I resorted to mutilation
It was rash and immature
Acting out of desperation
I just wanted to make sure
I had to erase my longing
As feelings made me weak
I'd no hope of belonging
Because I'm but a freak
The plan was a success
I escaped the mental hell
Dismissing my distress
Breaking from her spell
The process may be violent
But new clarity was born
All emotions fell sile